So here I am, sitting home alone, my baby girl upstairs asleep (for the moment), while my husband has been put up in a hotel 15 minutes away so that he can easily get to his office in the morning to work on some ridiculous time-sensitive project that I really don't understand or care about. All I care about is that a blizzard is about to hit us in Connecticut, and right now they're predicting 18-24 inches for our area which means I will not be leaving the house for the next few days, and who knows when my husband will be able to make it back home again. He came home from work for about 30 minutes this evening to pack up some clothes, grab some dinner and kiss his family, and he's gone again. I know this project will only last a few weeks and then hopefully things will get better, but right now I miss him and I feel lonely, so what's a girl to do except blog, blog blog. Because if I don't blog, I will snack, and thus sabotage my hopes at winning Biggest Blogging Loser (BBL). And if this next few weeks will teach me anything, it's that I need to win $1,500 so that I can rent a house on a beach somewhere this summer where neither of us will have to even THINK about work. Also? Being an adult SUCKS sometimes.
Anyway, while i'm thinking about it, my first week of BBL went really well. I limited my portion sizes and ate much, much healthier, and ended up losing almost 4 pounds in the first week. The eating better was fairly easy, but I had intentions to exercise every night and that didn't even come close to happening. On Monday, I did 25 minutes on the elliptical machine. On Tuesday, I did 10 minutes and was then interrupted by a crying baby who would not be comforted by her daddy so I had to intervene and thus cancel my exercising plans for that evening. And....that's it. The rest of the week was too hectic and my husband didn't get home until pretty late every night and I couldn't summon the energy after 8:00 PM to work out. I just couldn't. I sort of feel like a failure in that regard, but it wasn't happening. I'm honestly getting a little worried at my aspirations to run a 5K. How am I going to do that if I can't find time to train adequately? I am hoping that once the spring comes I won't have such a problem, but right now i'm admittedly discouraged. And as i'm sitting here writing this, I am thinking that I could be taking advantage of the fact that the baby is asleep and do some Wii Fit or put in a workout DVD, but then if the baby wakes up it will all get shot to hell anyway. These are all excuses, I know. I think part of my problem is that i'm feeling overwhelmed and lonely and generally kind of bummed out (or maybe it's Seasonal Affective Disorder). So instead I sit here sipping some red wine (empty calories) and blathering away in my journal on my blog. Cheers.
On a positive note, i'm planning a post in the near future that will be much more interesting and upbeat. A Martha Stewart--inspired Laundry Closet Re-Do, complete with before and after photos! That is, if I am ever able to dig myself out from two feet of snow to get to Target to purchase necessary Laundry Closet makeover items. Woe is me.
You have every right to be bummed, and a little wine is definitely the way to go!
As to the exercise, don't be so hard on yourself - you'll get back to it.
Posted by: ellen | January 11, 2011 at 11:20 PM
Oh man, you've got a tough week ahead of you and nothing is harder on weight-loss goals than being stuck in the house. Hit up the Twitter group so you can get some support when you want to snack. Or email me!
Also, I'm excited about this closet re-do. Sounds awesome.
Posted by: Jennie | January 12, 2011 at 11:55 AM
Congrats on the 4lbs! That is an awesome accomplishment!!! Keep up the good work and hey maybe you can put little LJ in her saucer and do some hula hooping on the wii. LJ may be entertained by the cartoonishness of is and she gets to watch her mom in action!
Posted by: alicia | January 13, 2011 at 04:32 PM